PLEASE . . . . somebody, anybody. . . . PLEASE HELP ME!

They just now, just called again. Again demanding that I come into the the bishop’s office at the church tonight, again demanding that I meet with the Stake President. And again it has triggered a mass panic attack. It’s happening again. JUST LIKE BEFORE. I can’t stop shaking. My chest hurts and my lungs hurt. My hands are shaking so bad I can barely type this. It’s like before. Only, I’m shaking a lot worse, it’s so bad my glasses keep falling off. I can’t stop shaking. I can’t breath.

It’s like before, like a panic attack, only really, really, really bad. Why won’t they leave me alone. I need them to leave me alone. Please make them leave me alone. I don’t know if I can live through many more of these stroke like attacks. I have one every time they call. Please make them stop calling me. Tell them to leave me a lone. Please help me. I can’t stop shaking. My whole body is skaking all over I don’t know what to do.

Please call the church at 607-9517 or 207-666-3481 and tell them to leave me alone (I find the 666 in their # ironic) Ask for Robert Taylor. He is the counselor in charge of handling phone calls to the Stake Presadent of the Augusta Maine Stake.

You can read more about this 31 year on going harassment at the following links:

Excommunication for publishing my 2008 NaNoWriMo Book – Update

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HELP! Any doctors out there? Medical advice?

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Health UPDATE – Stroke caused by panic attack triggered by LDS Church excommunication threats :(

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Still Planning on Doing NaNoWriMo this year in spite of recent health issues

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Eleven Days Til NaNoWriMo and Stroke Update

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For Those interested- here is the Final (edited and spell checked) Draft of For Fear of Little Men, my 2008 NaNoWriMo book

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My Aliens vs Your Demons – Yep – If I’m Crazy, What Are You???????

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The Poison Pen Letters Return – AGAIN

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Excommunication – 2008 NaNoWriMo book banned – Update – My Inbox if overloading – a mass reply going here

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REPOST: For Fear of Little Men: First Draft of my autobiography book to be published in 2010+/-

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Note – I have not been to the LDS/Mormon church in 13 years, and yet, they continue to harass me on an almost daily basis.

In 2004 I started writing “Faith Not Religion”, my infamous 900 page rant on why I left the Mormon church. It was during the two years where I just sat there doing nothing but writing that book that I finally realized for the first time in my life that I WASN’T evil, like so many bishop kept telling me! I wasn’t demon possessed, like so many bishop kept telling me . What I was, was a victim of 27 years of mental and emotional abuse at the hands of a bunch of crazy tyrants. While writing “Faith Not Religion” I learned quite a bit about myself. Among them I learned:

I’m tired of being told I’m a witch.
I’m tired of being told I’m evil.
I’m tired of being told I do the things I do because I’m possessed by a demon.
I’m tired of being told I’m going to hell.
I’m tired of being told I’m inferior because I’m a lowly female.
I’m tired of being told not to talk because that’s reserved for men.
I’m just plain tired of BEING TOLD.
Every one talks to me, no one ever talks with me.
I want freedom from BEING TOLD.
I wish, that there was someone who would actually treat me like I was a person. Like I was important. Like I mattered.
I’m tired of being harassed by these people.
I’m tired of it.
Putting up with the abuse all those years was killing me.
Them killing my pets was an evil act.
Them paintballing my car was an evil act.
Them throwing rocks at and blinding my horse, was an evil act.
Them burning my drawings in the woodstove was and evil act.
Them burning my manuscripts in the wood stove was an evil act.
Them saying I was evil was an evil act.
They were the ones who were evil, not me.
Not being allowed to get a job because I was a female, was an evil thing for them to do to me.
Them smashing my Liberace` records was an evil act.
Them stealing parts off of my car and leaving it in ruins was an evil act.
Them setting fire to my home and leaving me homeless was an evil act.

Please put an end to this before they cause my death. I don’t think I can live through another stroke. PLEASE HELP ME!. Please call the church at 607-9517 or 207-666-3481 and tell them to leave me alone (I find the 666 in their # ironic) Ask for Robert Taylor. He is the counselor in charge of handling phone calls to the Stake Presadent of the Augusta Maine Stake. Please. call him. PLEASE! Why won’t they leave me alone. I need them to leave me alone. Please make them leave me alone. I don’t know if I can live through many more of these stroke like attacks. I have one every time they call. Please make them stop calling me. Tell them to leave me a lone. Please help me. I can’t stop shaking. My whole body is shaking all over I don’t know what to do. Please some one help me.

Waiting for Emmett to come.

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HELP! Any doctors out there? Medical advice?

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I know the first answer is going to be “Go to the hospital.” but before you say that, I’ve tried going to the hospital many times in the past. The receptionist starts filling out my info – asks what type of insurance I have – I tell her I don’t have and can’t get any. (the links tells you why in more detail, I posted about this before.) As soon as they hear that, they stop filling out my forms and tell me to leave, saying they are not allowed to treat any one without medical insurance. I have not seen a doctor since I was 17 years old. The moment I turned 18, I was too old for insurance and was never eligible to get any from anywhere.

That said, I don’t know exactly what is wrong. I’ve never really had anything like this happen before, so I don’t know what is wrong or what to do about it. If you read my last post, you’ll know more about the events of this morning which, I’m assuming led up to this, and I’m also assuming that what is wrong is directly caused by an inordinate amount of stress, the past few years, which has been building up for the past few months.

My symptoms:

First off, my stomach (belly? gut? intestine? that basic area) feels like a giant wearing cleats is jumping on me. Lots of stabbing sharp pains in lots pf places, but all in the same basic area. They really, really hurt, really, really, bad. It’s like menstrual cramps only lots of them and magnified 100 times more painful. I can not stand up, I can barely sit up long enough to type this. My lower back is also aching, which I think may be a side effect of these stabbing pains.

Secondly, as mentioned in my last post - my heart is racing – it feels like it is just going faster and faster and faster – like someone put it into overdrive and it is stuck there and can’t slow down, it can only beat faster. It feels like my heart has multiplied and there are now hundreds of tiny hearts all over me – in my lungs, my head, my ears, my neck, my arms – I guess that must be a throbbing caused by my blood trying to speed up fast enough to match my heart rate? That’s the only thing I can thinks of that it must be.

My lungs feel, i don’t know – weird – it’s really hard to breath, like someone reached in and is squeezing them so I can’t breath. I don’t know how else to describe it.

My head is pounding – it feels like there are sledge hammers all around me – pounding me from all sides. It hurts an awful lot. I’ve never had a headache that felt like this before. It’s a very scary feeling.

I am very, very, very, very dizzy – my head feels like a balloon, like it’s not there – like it filled with helium and floated away – a very light headed feeling – I do not think I could stand up or walk right now with out falling over. This seems to be spreading – my arms feel like they are going numb, making it hard for me to type this. It’s a very weird and scary sensation, because it is like I am losing control over my body.

I don’t know what to do. I know I should go to the hospital, but I can’t because I don’t have insurance. I don’t have a doctor I can call either, because of the same reason. Please help. If any one knows what I can do to stop this pian, please let me know. Thank you.

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I must have passed out – I don’t remember falling asleep. Just woke up and I’m wicked dizzy – but I don’t hurt as much as I did last night. That was about 4 AM and it’s now 9:30 AM. Just looked in the mirror – all my color is gone – I’m whiter than white. Not sure what caused that????? I’ve got a weird chill now – my whole body feels like I’m burning up (I must have a really high fever or something) but I’m freezing cold at the same time – I can’t stop shivering. My right side hurts – like my right ovary is throbbing – in that area – do ovaries throb? I’m not good with biology – I don’t know what else is in that area.


I’m so dizzy right now – everything is like it’s all spinning around me. I walked to the bathroom and back, but I felt top heavy, like I was gonna fall over – had to hold on to the wall to walk. My head is throbbing and my eyes hurt – everything is blurry, more so than usual – that’s not good, I’m also blind as it is – I can barely see 8 inches in front of me on a good day. I feel really strange – like I’m not attached to my body, or something, I don’t know how else to describe it, it’s just a really weird sensation. I think I need to lay down. I can’t stop shivering – I’m going to go make a hot-water-bottle and than go to bed.

It’s times like this, I wish I had a husband to take care of me. I really hate being alone. Even if I just had a friend I could talk to, would be nice. Church members and their superstitious crazed hysterics saw to that. Twenty years of being shunned. It makes life really hard when no one will look at you let alone talk to you. In a few weeks it should have been my 7th anniversary. Church leaders put a stop to the wedding. November is a really bad month for me – most every death in my life happened in November. The wedding that got canceled was supposed to be in November. Maybe that’s why I throw myself into NaNoWriMo with such a driving force – to try to forget.
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Find Out More About My 2008 NaNoWriMo Book Which the LDS/Mormon Church is up in arms about. (NOTE – this link goes to the unedited proof of the book and not to the actual listing.)

Find Out More About My 2009 NaNoWriMo Project

What’s your take on this? I’d love to hear what you have to say about this post. Leave a comment and share your views!

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Editing and Drafts

Create a Fantasy Realm

Advice For NaNoWriters!

Creating Character Profiles

Are You A Renegade A Writer?

How To Become a Better Writer

The Top 5 Tools For NaNoWriMo

What Genre Is My Vampire Story?

Where Do You Get Your Ideas?

Improving your writing with what you read.

Have You Written Your Author’s Interview Yet?

How I Reached 50,000 in 30 Days and You Can Too!

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>HELP! Any doctors out there? Medical advice?

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I know the first answer is going to be “Go to the hospital.” but before you say that, I’ve tried going to the hospital many times in the past. The receptionist starts filling out my info – asks what type of insurance I have – I tell her I don’t have and can’t get any. (the links tells you why in more detail, I posted about this before.) As soon as they hear that, they stop filling out my forms and tell me to leave, saying they are not allowed to treat any one without medical insurance. I have not seen a doctor since I was 17 years old. The moment I turned 18, I was too old for insurance and was never eligible to get any from anywhere.

That said, I don’t know exactly what is wrong. I’ve never really had anything like this happen before, so I don’t know what is wrong or what to do about it. If you read my last post, you’ll know more about the events of this morning which, I’m assuming led up to this, and I’m also assuming that what is wrong is directly caused by an inordinate amount of stress, the past few years, which has been building up for the past few months.

My symptoms:

First off, my stomach (belly? gut? intestine? that basic area) feels like a giant wearing cleats is jumping on me. Lots of stabbing sharp pains in lots pf places, but all in the same basic area. They really, really hurt, really, really, bad. It’s like menstrual cramps only lots of them and magnified 100 times more painful. I can not stand up, I can barely sit up long enough to type this. My lower back is also aching, which I think may be a side effect of these stabbing pains.

Secondly, as mentioned in my last post - my heart is racing – it feels like it is just going faster and faster and faster – like someone put it into overdrive and it is stuck there and can’t slow down, it can only beat faster. It feels like my heart has multiplied and there are now hundreds of tiny hearts all over me – in my lungs, my head, my ears, my neck, my arms – I guess that must be a throbbing caused by my blood trying to speed up fast enough to match my heart rate? That’s the only thing I can thinks of that it must be.

My lungs feel, i don’t know – weird – it’s really hard to breath, like someone reached in and is squeezing them so I can’t breath. I don’t know how else to describe it.

My head is pounding – it feels like there are sledge hammers all around me – pounding me from all sides. It hurts an awful lot. I’ve never had a headache that felt like this before. It’s a very scary feeling.

I am very, very, very, very dizzy – my head feels like a balloon, like it’s not there – like it filled with helium and floated away – a very light headed feeling – I do not think I could stand up or walk right now with out falling over. This seems to be spreading – my arms feel like they are going numb, making it hard for me to type this. It’s a very weird and scary sensation, because it is like I am losing control over my body.

I don’t know what to do. I know I should go to the hospital, but I can’t because I don’t have insurance. I don’t have a doctor I can call either, because of the same reason. Please help. If any one knows what I can do to stop this pian, please let me know. Thank you.

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I must have passed out – I don’t remember falling asleep. Just woke up and I’m wicked dizzy – but I don’t hurt as much as I did last night. That was about 4 AM and it’s now 9:30 AM. Just looked in the mirror – all my color is gone – I’m whiter than white. Not sure what caused that????? I’ve got a weird chill now – my whole body feels like I’m burning up (I must have a really high fever or something) but I’m freezing cold at the same time – I can’t stop shivering. My right side hurts – like my right ovary is throbbing – in that area – do ovaries throb? I’m not good with biology – I don’t know what else is in that area. 


I’m so dizzy right now – everything is like it’s all spinning around me. I walked to the bathroom and back, but I felt top heavy, like I was gonna fall over – had to hold on to the wall to walk. My head is throbbing and my eyes hurt – everything is blurry, more so than usual – that’s not good, I’m also blind as it is – I can barely see 8 inches in front of me on a good day. I feel really strange – like I’m not attached to my body, or something, I don’t know how else to describe it, it’s just a really weird sensation. I think I need to lay down. I can’t stop shivering – I’m going to go make a hot-water-bottle and than go to bed.

It’s times like this, I wish I had a husband to take care of me. I really hate being alone. Even if I just had a friend I could talk to, would be nice. Church members and their superstitious crazed hysterics saw to that. Twenty years of being shunned. It makes life really hard when no one will look at you let alone talk to you. In a few weeks it should have been my 7th anniversary. Church leaders put a stop to the wedding. November is a really bad month for me – most every death in my life happened in November. The wedding that got canceled was supposed to be in November. Maybe that’s why I throw myself into NaNoWriMo with such a driving force – to try to forget.

Find Out More About My 2008 NaNoWriMo Book Which the LDS/Mormon Church is up in arms about. (NOTE – this link goes to the unedited proof of the book and not to the actual listing.)

Find Out More About My 2009 NaNoWriMo Project

What’s your take on this? I’d love to hear what you have to say about this post. Leave a comment and share your views!

———-
Editing and Drafts
Create a Fantasy Realm
Advice For NaNoWriters!
Creating Character Profiles
Are You A Renegade A Writer?
How To Become a Better Writer
The Top 5 Tools For NaNoWriMo
What Genre Is My Vampire Story?
Where Do You Get Your Ideas?
Improving your writing with what you read.
Have You Written Your Author’s Interview Yet?
How I Reached 50,000 in 30 Days and You Can Too!
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HELP! Any doctors out there? Medical advice?

I know the first answer is going to be “Go to the hospital.” but before you say that, I’ve tried going to the hospital many times in the past. The receptionist starts filling out my info – asks what type of insurance I have – I tell her I don’t have and can’t get any. (the links tells you why in more detail, I posted about this before.) As soon as they hear that, they stop filling out my forms and tell me to leave, saying they are not allowed to treat any one without medical insurance. I have not seen a doctor since I was 17 years old. The moment I turned 18, I was too old for insurance and was never eligible to get any from anywhere.

That said, I don’t know exactly what is wrong. I’ve never really had anything like this happen before, so I don’t know what is wrong or what to do about it. If you read my last post, you’ll know more about the events of this morning which, I’m assuming led up to this, and I’m also assuming that what is wrong is directly caused by an inordinate amount of stress, the past few years, which has been building up for the past few months.

My symptoms:

First off, my stomach (belly? gut? intestine? that basic area) feels like a giant wearing cleats is jumping on me. Lots of stabbing sharp pains in lots pf places, but all in the same basic area. They really, really hurt, really, really, bad. It’s like menstrual cramps only lots of them and magnified 100 times more painful. I can not stand up, I can barely sit up long enough to type this. My lower back is also aching, which I think may be a side effect of these stabbing pains.

Secondly, as mentioned in my last post - my heart is racing – it feels like it is just going faster and faster and faster – like someone put it into overdrive and it is stuck there and can’t slow down, it can only beat faster. It feels like my heart has multiplied and there are now hundreds of tiny hearts all over me – in my lungs, my head, my ears, my neck, my arms – I guess that must be a throbbing caused by my blood trying to speed up fast enough to match my heart rate? That’s the only thing I can thinks of that it must be.

My lungs feel, i don’t know – weird – it’s really hard to breath, like someone reached in and is squeezing them so I can’t breath. I don’t know how else to describe it.

My head is pounding – it feels like there are sledge hammers all around me – pounding me from all sides. It hurts an awful lot. I’ve never had a headache that felt like this before. It’s a very scary feeling.

I am very, very, very, very dizzy – my head feels like a balloon, like it’s not there – like it filled with helium and floated away – a very light headed feeling – I do not think I could stand up or walk right now with out falling over. This seems to be spreading – my arms feel like they are going numb, making it hard for me to type this. It’s a very weird and scary sensation, because it is like I am losing control over my body.

I don’t know what to do. I know I should go to the hospital, but I can’t because I don’t have insurance. I don’t have a doctor I can call either, because of the same reason. Please help. If any one knows what I can do to stop this pian, please let me know. Thank you.

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EDIT –

I must have passed out – I don’t remember falling asleep. Just woke up and I’m wicked dizzy – but I don’t hurt as much as I did last night. That was about 4 AM and it’s now 9:30 AM. Just looked in the mirror – all my color is gone – I’m whiter than white. Not sure what caused that????? I’ve got a weird chill now – my whole body feels like I’m burning up (I must have a really high fever or something) but I’m freezing cold at the same time – I can’t stop shivering. My right side hurts – like my right ovary is throbbing – in that area – do ovaries throb? I’m not good with biology – I don’t know what else is in that area. 

I’m so dizzy right now – everything is like it’s all spinning around me. I walked to the bathroom and back, but I felt top heavy, like I was gonna fall over – had to hold on to the wall to walk. My head is throbbing and my eyes hurt – everything is blurry, more so than usual – that’s not good, I’m also blind as it is – I can barely see 8 inches in front of me on a good day. I feel really strange – like I’m not attached to my body, or something, I don’t know how else to describe it, it’s just a really weird sensation. I think I need to lay down. I can’t stop shivering – I’m going to go make a hot-water-bottle and than go to bed.

It’s times like this, I wish I had a husband to take care of me. I really hate being alone. Even if I just had a friend I could talk to, would be nice. Church members and their superstitious crazed hysterics saw to that. Twenty years of being shunned. It makes life really hard when no one will look at you let alone talk to you. In a few weeks it should have been my 7th anniversary. Church leaders put a stop to the wedding. November is a really bad month for me – most every death in my life happened in November. The wedding that got canceled was supposed to be in November. Maybe that’s why I throw myself into NaNoWriMo with such a driving force each November since the year after the wedding was canceled – to try to forget.

Find Out More About My 2008 NaNoWriMo Book Which the LDS/Mormon Church is up in arms about. (NOTE – this link goes to the unedited proof of the book and not to the actual listing.)

Find Out More About My 2009 NaNoWriMo Project

What’s your take on this? I’d love to hear what you have to say about this post. Leave a comment and share your views!

———-

Editing and Drafts

Create a Fantasy Realm

Advice For NaNoWriters!

Creating Character Profiles

Are You A Renegade A Writer?

How To Become a Better Writer

The Top 5 Tools For NaNoWriMo

What Genre Is My Vampire Story?

Where Do You Get Your Ideas?

Improving your writing with what you read.

Have You Written Your Author’s Interview Yet?

How I Reached 50,000 in 30 Days and You Can Too!

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If you liked reading this blog and want to read more stuff written by me, I have lots of websites, where you can read other things I write, here are a few of the ones I like the best:
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